Breakdown

I had a huge breakdown today.

Mr J is in town unexpectedly...and showed up over 2 hours after he said he would...I didn't even realize how upset I was with him until I saw him.

He hasn't been the most supportive about this whole situation...and I left him a message on Tuesday after seeing the doctor asking him to call me -which he didn't do Tuesday, or Wednesday, in fact he didn't call me at all until Friday @ 7:00pm to announce he would be ruining my plans for Saturday (that's a whole other story entirely).

It all came flooding out of me and onto him tonight. I yelled like a small child, told him I was let down - disappointed - ...again...and that I needed someone to talk to about this that really knew me, but I guessed it wasn't him because he's never around so how could he know me?

...then I stormed out of the room and slammed the bedroom door behind me...

Long story short ... he gave me a few minutes to calm down before he came in... I bawled my eyes out... told him that this is scaring me to death and that I don't feel like he's behind me...he made it better...he made amends

then he took me out for pizza before he went out for the night (which is why he's here in the first place)